The Endless War
The darkness grabs me round the throat,
Pulls me down into the pit of black.
I've been on the edge for quite some time,
It feels me leaving, and wants me back.
I try to fight it, to not give in,
To remember it's that way no more.
I remind myself that I'm happier now,
So much more than ever before.
But the past comes back to bite me,
From even the smallest of details.
The months of progress I've made,
Are suddenly violently derailed.
In that moment I'm not strong,
My fear so wild it shakes me.
But I'm determined to hold on,
To never let that darkness take me.
I love my life up in the sun,
A life of laughter, joy, and peace.
But times like this it's hard to feel
That sun through the clench of shadows' teeth.
They grab me, pulling me further and further,
Down into their endless darkness.
I know that if I lose this battle,
I may have no more strength to harness.
I'm growing weak, and oh so tired,
Of my eternal internal war.
I lose my will to continually fight,
The same battles as before.